Change

Life has its many twists and turns but I still see allot of the characteristics of the child hood me in my life. Some of them good some of them I wish I could throw away and have tried many times. It seems as adults we just learn different ways of hidding those things we dislike. I guess it is only God who can really change people because we don't know which way to go. I pray to God that he will change me.

Unoffical Post

Because all authors have exams for the next month there will be a blockade for new official posts. This message was written late because management had to figure out how to let people know with out making an official post. After many days they decided that this unofficial post was the best option.

The tree and the tumble weed

There were a group of trees on the edge of the forest. They were devoted to growing big and strong to withstand the element's of the world. There were old big trees that no one knew how long they had been there. Then one day along came a tumble weed blow out from the plains. The trees all laughed at the tumble weed for being so small and unstable. The tumble weed replied that maybe in the forest the big, strong, and stable survive but in the plains the quick, fast spreading survive.
Watch how we judge because God might be moving in completely different ways in two different people.

This Road Called Life

It seems that in the road we walk in life that there is always two ditches calling out to us to fall in. They are in a sense opposites always calling the other side ignorant. On one side you have the people who don't listen to laws and are very chaotic, the other side is all about rules and "order". The laws will say "At least I'm doing something with my life" and the chaotic side will say "You work so hard for nothing it will all be lost anyway". "Change the world" and the response "The world will not change". Then I imagine a voice coming from further on the road saying "come to me all who are heavy laden and I will give you rest". What these sides say might be true but they are vary dangerous. If these statements are taken as what your life is centered on then you will end up in the ditch. You got to keep heading for the voice and look for something that will give life and not burden you down with despair or rules.

The box we live in

This small world we live on, that we try to conquer, exploit, in realty destroy every day. Is so insignificant when you take the box of our world down. If the earth would disappear the galaxy we live in would not look any different. If our solar system would disappear the galaxy would still look the same just one infinitesimal tiny dot missing. If our galaxy would disappear would the universe notice? We humans try to do great things on this earth. We try to build great towers, travel far distances but in view of the universe they are nothing. We can do nothing that would affect anything but our own little box so why are we always tyring to do great things. This week has about giving up everything and doing the will of God Creator of the universe because nothing else matters. Here is an interesting quote from a book that I like

There were Two Trees in the Garden by Rick Joyner
"The irony is that the Lord wants us to ascend to heaven; He wants us to sit on the mount of the assembly; He wants us to be raised above the heights of the clouds; and He wants us to be like Him (to have His nature). But only He can accomplish this for us (which He has done through His Son). It has been a primary strategy of Satan through the ages to tempt man to grasp for himself what the Lord ultimately intends to give him anyway. The victory of Jesus over Satan was accomplished when He "did not regard equality with God a thing to be grasped" (Philippians 2:6), but humbled Himself instead trusting the Father to exalt Him at the proper time."

O wretched man that I am!

Romans 7:19
For the good that I will to do, I do not do; but the evil that I will not to do, that I practice.

Romans 7:24 & 25
O wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death?
I thank God-through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, with the mind I myself serve the law of God, but with the flesh the law of sin.

These verses have meant allot to me this week. The good things that I will to do, I do not do. Why are we so weak? I try to give up trying doing things for jealousy, pride, money, my own glory etc. I guess we get used to using these devices to motivate us that we never practice what God intended. Why can't we do God's will because we want to? Oh how I wish I could follow that.

Answers

Where can I found truth? Where are the answers to all our questions? We try to find them but our own prejudices, thoughts , and ideas cloud the answers. Even when we read the bible it is clouded by our own thoughts. My brain is controlled by chemicals and emotions that I have no control over. My body gives up fails and sits and does nothing when there is the world to do. My own brain can convince me of things that I do not believe. Is there anything that I can hold on to? It seems that all I have left is a prayer that through all of this God would touch me and make me into something I'm not. So I will bury all these problems and trust that God will one day turn it into something that I can't imagine, more real, more joyful - something that I need. As someone I know once said (paraphrase) "If God uses these events to turn people to God it was worth ever thing that it cost me."

All this work for nothing

We seem to try so hard as humans to do many things but it always falls apart in our hands. Conquers die on their last battle. The moon hasn't been touched in a long time. Empires fall apart from the inside. Business go bankrupt. Stories and names get forgotten or used without knowing the person. Relief aid that goes to the wrong people. A+ students get nerves breakdowns. Relief aid that doesn't even help but hinder the healing process. We seem to work so hard to do something but it always falls apart. paraphrase from the movie Enemy at the Gate. "We tried to create a world where there would be no wanting of a neighbours stuff but we always will" From the mouth of a communist Russian.

It seems as though we weren't meant to do things for ourselves and by ourselves. What we do for God is the only thing that really matters and he doesn't expect us to do anything by ourselves (because then we might want to take the credit). Why should I even try. The question for me is what am I tyring to do by myself or for myself and leave it behind before I waste to much time on it.

Ecclesiastes 9

11 I returned and saw under the sun that—
The race is not to the swift,
Nor the battle to the strong,
Nor bread to the wise,
Nor riches to men of understanding,
Nor favor to men of skill;
But time and chance happen to them all.
12 For man also does not know his time:
Like fish taken in a cruel net,
Like birds caught in a snare,
So the sons of men are snared in an evil time,
When it falls suddenly upon them.

The world is lost over pennies

The world is lost over every choice we make. I've been wondering where the things we buy come from. How many things we buy have it's history in slavery(debt or not). The world is driven in saving money. This is good when it is used to make a system more efficient (yet there are many companies in the U.S. that are far from efficient), but there is nothing to stop the use of cheap labour or unethical ways of making money.
The dirty products are every one's fault. Do you buy the fair trade coffee? Do you buy honey instead of sugar? Would you buy the more expensive product if you knew it was made ethically? The companies obviously don't think so. This is why I say the world is lost over pennies, every person saves a few pennies and people die every day.
I'm no exception I still eat sugar, use tissue paper... the list goes on. The purpose of the blog is not to make you feel guilty but to make you aware of the problems and not blindly follow the cheaper product and if God grants us wisdom we might be even able to fix these problems.

Addictions

Images of drugs cigarettes alcohole ... come to mind. Recently I've been wondering about addictions. What am I addicted to? When I was younger I had a friend who didn't know what the word addiction meant and after it was explained to him he said he was addicted to watermelon.

When looking my own life there are some thing that I don't really want but yet they are still there. For the drug addict his circumstances lead him to get his next high. To stop the cycle he has to make major life changes (mental and physical) to fix his addiction, and if we don't help him I doubt that he can ever get out of the cycle. Things I want to give up are; wasting time by watching TV and I want to spend less time doing nothing on the computer. The way that seems to work the best for me is to slowly change my life style to include other things. The easiest way to break free was not to try really hard to break free (that never seems to work in the long run) but to realize that I didn't want it anymore and then through a slow change of mind give it up.

Here's and interesting Quote that goes along with this article. It is from a FAQ off of http://www.humanclock.com/

"You have too much time on your hands! Why did you waste your time on this?
The same could be said for someone sitting though a generic Hollywood action movie or someone mindlessly flipping though TV channels complaining that there is "nothing on". It is just how I choose to spend my free time."