Self Reflection

I have determined I keep to many secrets and I close in on myself to much so I propose to change that, even if it means talking to an empty room to start.

So if your wondering what has been up
there was this girl that I liked,
I wanted to know if things could work, and no they couldn't.
As I have said I made a complete fool of myself, but in some ways I'm glad I did.

I like the words end of an era with this as a sign post,
because it seems that way in many ways in my life.

I find myself wanting to do something for God. We'll have to wait and see.

I have determined that deep down I am always asking a question,
and I am always searching for an answer.
I guess I have lots of questions.
That's what makes me so strange and difficult sometimes.
I wonder if I will ever settle down.
When in heaven I don't want to ask a single one, but rather praise God forever.

I used to be the shadow, I felt the breath of life wake me up,
only to find myself in a parched land craving water.
I wonder about the road I have travelled to get here,
only God knows why.

I walk into this oasis from the desert.
I come to drink from the fount where I will never thirst again.
The keeper of the fount has one request,
that will make this water last.

I realize I am far from where I want to be
I realize God is all and all.

Oh God I am in need of your mercy
Oh God I am in need of your grace
God help us
God lead us

yes I have pushed off the next entry again, I guess it's really making me think about things.