Something completely different

So if you want to throw me in the crazy bin after this post, I don't blame you. There are some parallels with my life but I could very well be wrong about them because I have been before.

This is a dream I had this morning, and I can't sleep so I am posting it now.

I can't remember what I was doing but it was something insignificant in my dream, and the weather was gloomy, cold and things were not terrible good.
I felt a need to ask God to speak to me so I did.
The weather turned bad, and things where miserable like one of those freak summer storms.
The wind was so strong that I could hardly stand.
So I screamed out God speak to me
And then he did,
I can't remember what he said but I remember that there was a need for a sacrifice.
There was a cow and I had of all things a hula hoop to use and though I tried hard I couldn't sacrifice the cow and then it was gone.
Then another cow came and I was trying again.

Then I woke up.

Right at this instant I remembered from church this Sunday (we had a guest couple from promise keepers) that she said she had woken up at 3:16 and so she shared John 3:16. I checked the clock and it was 3:19 and so I will share John 3:19.

"And this is the judgement, that the light is come into the world, and men loved the darkness rather than the light; for their works were evil." ASV

For me this verse is explaining reaction to light, which could be interpreted as God's saving grace or a whole host of things. We hate God's grace because it shows our wickedness. We don't hate the light because of the light but rather what it shows in us. For me I have had to realize what I am doing, I am so caught up in hiding stuff and hating the light for what it does that I miss the whole point of light. The light is meant to save us, and the brightness that exposes us is there so that we can give those areas to God.

I wrote this on the fifth of April or sometime around then.

This is the second or third area in my life I have had to use this.
It is when you feel like surrender is giving in,
it is really the victory dance
because in surrendering you destroy the power it has over you.
I am no longer clenching this chain that is holding me down.
Though I know it will probably come back again I hold this
memory of it's defeat to use against it.

Getting back to my dream, I guess there is some things that I stick out to me that I would like prayer about and I will pray about. I am using the wrong instrument, there is no way a hula hoop is going to work so pray that I can find the right instrument. The second thing and it has to do with the first is that I can complete the sacrifice.

Wow I am hungry! ummmmm...... that could be interpreted wrong I am actually hungry lol