Still working it out.

I remember in grade school
How I realized how all my efforts
in trying to be popular, wanting to be at the top
or as close to as possible; How those desires were useless.
I guess I saw a glimpse of the power in what Jesus had to offer.
You can live with out being controlled by others
Your self worth doesn't have to be determined by others.
and really I'm not cut out for being popular.
So I decided to be myself.
So I decided to find better rules.
I am still trying to figure out what that means
I am still trying to figure out how to play it out.

Here is where something new comes in,
Every time you put anything before God,
even yourself, your deepest instinct before God,
you fall down a slippery slope.
Read the post on Tues Sept 16,
and you will see how close I come, if not step over that line.
It isn't the first time, and it creates allot of trouble.

1 Corinthians 2:12
"Now we have received, not the spirit of the world, but the Spirit who is from God, that we might know the things that have been freely given to us by God."

I would like to replace deepest instinct with Spirit from God in that quote by Katharine Butler Hathaway.

I guess that's my hope for everyone.
That we can lose chains that hold us here
That stop the almighty from his work
We need God's help more than we can imagine.