What does it take to cross the bridge?

I have seen smarter people than me simply lose everything for really nothing. I have watched people I considered a much better Christian than me simple turn it all in, and I have seen people show what is underneath. It makes me wonder what does it take to cross the bridge.

One thing this past year and a bit has taught me is how to pray. I have never prayed more, I have never asked God for so much.

Yesterday in church I heard one of the most brilliant messages about things that control us. This person talked about how there life was controlled by something relativity simple, and it was by asking God for a greater passion for him that this person could overcome the control.

So many times we use quick fixes, to subdue our desires. It's an idea I think C.S Lewis mentions allot, how we continue to skew and distort what God has given to us to lead us to him.

There was a evening a few years ago there was an event happening and I was out of the loop, and though I tried to get in the loop I ended up just making a bigger fool of myself. That night was hard and I prayed to God "I can't take this, do something ..." or something like that. In the mist of that I suddenly felt better, and though I ended up not doing anything that evening I was fine with it. It blew my mind, and I still do not understand. It is so counter culture, doesn't make any sense. I don't believe that God calls us to live as a hermit, but I do believe that God uses our desires to call us closer to him.

This is me trying to cross the bridge (Working On Progress). 1 Peter 2:1-9

God give us a passion for you.
God bless us in only the way you can.
God lead us in your ways.
God protect us.