A Final Goodbye

So this is it
A final goodbye,
Where the old day is gone, and a new rises.
With midnight in-between, and I survived again.
I wonder why?
I hate starts and stops because I'm no good at them.

Another season passes by,
I feel the time that passed by.
I feel older once again.

This is my grievance for the past,
and me calling in the new day.
For me it's not a load drum,
but slowly with a quiet voice.

This is my quiet peace for the past,
and me stepping into full steam
I ask God for strength once again.

Thanks be to God,
Thanks be to Jesus,
God I call for a blessing.
I call for a glorious day.
What ever that may be.

The chorus of heaven are never silent.

I know this will not make sense to most people but that's the way it's going to have to be.

Angels and Demons

So I don't know what you all believe about Angels and Demons but well ...

So last night I could not sleep, I was tossing and turning. And to add to that I was scared though I don't know what I was scared of. Like I couldn't even keep the door of my room open for more than 2 seconds. At like 1 am I was hungry from all the tossing and turning so I bravefully went down stairs to raid for food, didn't find much except a box of cheerios. I brought this back to my room and eat it with my back to the wall and never missing a thing. I though it was just my mind racing or something so I did the usual tricks such as watching my breathing, or doing something repetitive but it was to no avail. Then it finally clicked what was happening at like 3 or 2 oclock in the morning and I used these words.

Acts 16:18 "Paul, being sore troubled, turned and said to the spirit, I charge thee in the name of Jesus Christ to come out of her." Except in my words "In the name of Jesus leave me alone"

And in five min. I was asleep. With the door and window wide open.

I guess a reminder that God and prayer are the most powerful things we have, and God will give us all we need.

I am amazed by my friends and am supper thankful for their words of warning. I just wish I could talk to them more, get to know them better.

Ephesians 6 ish The Message "Be prepared. Your up against far more than you can handle on your own. Take all the help you can get, every weapon God has issued, so that when it's all over but the shouting you'll still be on your feet."

Or maybe just one thing.

We humans can't change a single thing.
We can't call in the abundant skies.
We are a sharp edge that destroys everything.
We leave people dry.
I am no different.

There is an explosion, I see the blast.
I run into my house only to see it fall apart.
I run out.
I stand outside feeling the blast, calling God for help.

God rules the world, and who can stand in his way, who can challenge him.
God is the one who owns the abundant skies and call us in.
God is the refreshing stream, the healing hand.
He is the one who breaks my fall, He is the reason I breathe.
God owns me, and I depend on him solely.

We humans need God. We need God's love.

God Lead us,
God Bless us,
God Give us Strength.
God Protect us.

I need a break.
So I am taking a rest for a bit, giving this blog a rest. A time of summer fallow for me.

I just bid on this CD on Ebay so hopefully I get it soon :)

Day of Fire - Rain Song

Bring rivers in this wasteland
Clouds into this sky
Bring springs of life into the wells that have been run dry

Rise up in this city
Gather in this light
Fall down on your people
Your glory and your life

Rain
Lord we thirst for water
Rain
We are desert Land
Rain
On your sons and daughters
Rain
Bring your rain again

Speak dreams into this water
And vision to this land
That oceans be divided
And bring forth life again

Rise up in this city
Gather in this light
Fall down on your people
Your glory and your life

CHORUS x 2

Let the tide roll in
Washing over our lives
Let your water fall again

Bring rivers in this wasteland
Clouds into the sky

CHORUS x 2

Bring your rain again
Let your water fall down
Bring your rain again now
(repeat)

Sun July 19

So I realized something today, actually it has been mulling for a bit and today it clicked. Sometimes I can get so focused on trying to figure out the reasons for why people do what they do. It's sort of a self defence mechanism I guess. But I found out that it just makes me suspicious, and dumb and so I say goodbye. Now of course it seems ridiculous.

So now I'm going to try to put some puzzle pieces together. I don't know if I have reached the bottom but It seems that other problems grow from this. If you think about it if I am suspicious, soon the glass become half empty and every one is against me and I start thinking like the blog entry on July 12. Then I become unreasonable because I am asking for a fight and to be left beaten up. I guess the point I am trying to make in all of this is that even without any negative outside influences I can work against myself. A little bit of a chiller and a humbler for myself.

God Bless us
God Lead us

God's Gift

So today I realized something. Jesus gave everything as a gift to us. We could have completely wasted all he did by not listening to what he did or said. We could have said he was just another crazy person and ignored him, and his miracles. He did not trust solely in people to continue his message (In the night of his betrayal all his disciples left him). He did not trust that earthly love would overcome. He trusted fully in God's plan. The truth is that people abuse his gift everyday, and yet the gift is still there. It is not dependent on what we do. It is not dependent on us at all. And he calls us to be like him.

Today that brought tears to my eyes, and my knees to the floor.

God give us the strength
God bless us
God lead us

And yes it was time for a color change, actually a tiny overhaul.

Impressions

So I can across something recently, and I find very useful especially when dealing with people. I was accused of something, and from my point of view it was an accusation on an assumption that someone had made. Now I understand we all do it including me, but I didn't take it very well to begin with, not good at all. I just find that if I word things (actually in general think about things) in the form of a question rather than an accusation things go so much better. So yah let us all try bettering your world by thinking in the form of questions rather than accusations.

It's only later when I could put the accusation in the form of a question in my head that I could come up with a half decent answer.

Fighting

There are times when I have connected with these words from the movie Fighting by Dito Montiel.
"You think I don't understand I'm nothing, I get it I ain't worth nothing.
but the only way I'm going to lose is if somebody beats me."
To me they have seemed like legit words, but after awhile I have come to understand that they are selfish words. They only consider the one person who is talking. I find thinking like that enslaves me and makes me angry and doesn't help at all. The turn around happened at work I was giving one of those no glory projects (no matter what you do people will complain). I expressed my concern to my boss, and he gave me this article http://www.winnipegfreepress.com/business/glass--half-empty-dont-blame-others-for-your-bad-attitude-49922407.html. A sort of you eat your words thing.

I think I have the first steps to the top of the mountain for what I would like to replace that with. God this is all yours, I will do what I think is right and if it's not force me to realize otherwise, if it is give me more than enough strength courage and will power to do your will. Help me to listen to you.

You know this relates to the post I did on June 21. I had very much the same attitude then. In a situation like that the goal is to descalate the situation not escalate it, and you have to push aside yourself.

Consistency

Consistency is a skill that is not easily gained, because we as humans are always changing and so to remain the same because impossible. Only God remains the same forever. There are ways to give the impression of consistency.

The power of people comes from preparation. If you want to be consistent you train yourself for every possible situation (Role Playing). Governments do groups projects where they assign people to different parties and mock a situation. They list the possible choices and then decide the best possible solution as they walk through the given scenario.

But if your anything like me and your lazy, not that smart, and don't have loads of time you can't do that.

The power of Gods' people is in prayer.

Philippians 4:6,7 ASV
6 In nothing be anxious; but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.
7 And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus.

define: Love

So I was upset the other day for no other reason then by what google did (or maybe what it didn't do). I routinely use googles' Define: tool. I like it because it usually gives you a whole host of definitions from a variety of sources with links so that you can find more information. But I was disappointed the other day when I typed in "define: Love" in the google search bar. In this the information age that is all google could find. Then I found this page http://www.wikihow.com/Define-Love and I understood why dictionaries are the way they are. "The dictionary defines love in several ways in which we use the word". I am actually impressed with the page so check it out. So here is my attempt add to this without actually adding anything.

1 Corinthians 13~ish The Message
"
Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
Love doesn't strut,
Doesn't have a swelled head,
Doesn't force itself on others,
Isn't always "me first,"
Doesn't fly off the handle,
Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn't revel when other grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.
"

Now for some comical relief have a look at this vid.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=90SIuISIVB8 "The Big Snit"
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