Work

It's been a long time since I've done an Enneagram. http://www.enneagraminstitute.com/
Probably since high school.
Turns out I'm still the same,
I am a 5 "THE INVESTIGATOR"
I have to agree with the following

Basic Fear: Being useless, helpless, or incapable
Basic Desire: To be capable and competent
When moving in their Direction of Disintegration (stress),
detached Fives suddenly become hyperactive and scattered at Seven.

They do not accept received opinions and doctrines, feeling a strong need to test the truth of most assumptions for themselves.

This is something that I've been working on, hard work at times, and I really want to:

Thus, the challenge to Fives is to understand that they can pursue whatever questions or problems spark their imaginations and maintain relationships, take proper care of themselves, and do all of the things that are the hallmarks of a healthy life.

According to the test I also have some 3 "THE ACHIEVER" in me,
and I agree with that, or is it a misdiagnosed 8(growth) it's possible.

I find that I like to discover new areas to investigate. An interesting one is Public speaking, it's funny because when I discover a area I play with it, and so I've played with public speaking it's kinda fun, you should try it sometime. Something I also continue to work on is not caring if I look like a complete retard or not, but mindful of the reasons.

I have to watch myself this is something I wrote.
Things are hard for me right now,
for a variety of external reasons.
But it comes down to I'm tired.
It's allot of work right now,
stopping myself from going down roads,
I don't want to travel.
So I call out to God for release.

God help me.

Seems I have lots to learn yet.
I've found a way to relax,
I got too involved when I should let things go.
Can't change anything anyways.