Rest

I have 3 posts that I really like,
but I can't post them.
So I am giving this blog a rest for a bit.

No one has seen this close before

I do, these pieces are nearly worn out.
This maze I wonder.
am I solver, or creator?
is it factual or figmental?
first and foremost it seems I forgot.
I wanted to say I'm sorry.
I'm the jerk(many times),
and I ask for your forgiveness.
this game, I played one night.
great potential turned to pain
snagged in a cycle
that I regret.

many times I've tread this maze.
always unsolved.
Thanks.
like always I need God's help.

A cry out

God lead us
God bless us

It seems this is an addiction

I wonder when we traded resilience for efficiency?

"The organism with the best chance of success is not necessarily the one most perfectly adapted to its environment at any particular point but rather the one that maintains its ability to respond to the environment in flexible ways." Daniel G. Bates - Human Adaptive Strategies third edition.

I wouldn't trade it for the world

I'm searching for the other side.
I'm searching for this next step.
It's seems I've made this much more difficult
I'm not looking for the best,
I'm not looking for better than everyone else.
what criteria would I use?

I'm searching for something that I know is right.
I'm searching for more than what I see here.
I'm searching for this light that Jesus has shown me.
Though I have no idea what it is.

I guess it starts like this,
first you see the problems around you,
then you see the problems in yourself,
then you have to be fine with God's saving grace,
then you work at them.
And repeat as necessary.

It seems this is the hardest thing I've faced,
It seems this stubborn head is rock solid.
I seem unable to trust God,
but slowly this rock is breaking.
I wouldn't trade it for the world.

oh what am I going to do?

It seems I've run out of peanut butter,
plain out of snacks,
oh what am I going to do?

I saw the sun set on my way home,
wanted to put it in a bottle,
but I'm against the destruction of wonder.

left the oven on to long,
burnt is really burnt,
never before tasted spicy burnt.

solved a problem on an envelop,
just for fun,
who needs looseleaf anyways.

Got a paycheck today,
more than I expected,
going to have to find ways to give it away.

God did some work today,
inexplicable to me,
but the rest would say coincidence.

It seems I have some guidance,
but not really sure,
So I reach for a deeper trust.

I'm absolutely insane,
I wonder how things will turn out,
oh what am I going to do?

It's another year on the wall

It's another year on the wall,
and it seems I'm not quite here.
I find I have exhausted myself again,
I need time to regain.
If there is one wish, one dream, one prayer, it would be
that we would look for answers and truly find them,
that we would seek God, and trust him.
I find so many times we take second best,
so many times we stop just short of Jesus.
Can we not see that nothing worth anything comes easy.
Can we not see that God wants you to seek him.

I despise ideas that undermine this life.
Things like
Life is shit, you are born then you die
Live the illusion
God helps those who help themselves
I won't change for anything

We are all Staind ...
what happens when we are shaken and find
we are awake, and see that this is it?
I am very much an optimist, and believe
that any obstacle can be overcome.

I can be distressed, but can't hit bottom.
Be scared, trembling nervous, and be fine with it.
Be vexed but don't leave what I trust.
The way I see it this life is a struggle,
but we choose what we struggle for.