"So, the only thing we have to fear is not fear itself but contentment."
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/programmes/world_news_america/7854864.stm

And he worshiped him

John 9
"25 He therefore answered, Whether he is a sinner, I know not: one thing I know, that, whereas I was blind, now I see.
...
30 The man answered and said unto them, Why, herein is the marvel, that ye know not whence he is, and yet he opened mine eyes.
31 We know that God heareth not sinners: but if any man be a worshiper of God, and do his will, him he heareth.
32 Since the world began it was never heard that any one opened the eyes of a man born blind.
33 If this man were not from God, he could do nothing.
...
38 And he said, Lord, I believe. And he worshiped him."

see Friday, February 29, 2008

cont. Jan 18

"Men still have to be governed by deception."
Georg C. Lichtenberg

Though it might seem tempting I choose to disagree.

"And love is not a victory march,
It's a cold and it is a broken Hallelujah
...
It's not a cry that you hear at night,
And it is not somebody who has seen the light
It's a cold and it is a broken Hallelujah" Hallelujah Words & Music by Leonard Cohen

Though I'm not sure on the meaning of the song and from what I've found it seems no one does, maybe if I had more time I could figure it out but I find that these words have the meaning that I want to convey.

Luke 22 NKJV
"43 Then an angel appeared to Him from heaven,strengthening Him.
44 And being in agony, He prayed more earnestly. Then His sweat became like great drops of blood falling down to the ground."

It seems the hardest part was not the next day but it was in the calm before the public battle was fought. I think we miss that sometimes.

Luke 22 NKJV
"31 And the Lord said, 'Simon, Simon! Indeed,Satan has asked for you, that he may sift you as wheat.'
32 'But I have prayed for you, that your faith should not fail; and when you have returned to Me, strengthen your brethren.'"

If you know what happens you will understand, and if not you should read it.
This is where it ties together. The story is a broken Hallelujah filled with desertion, betrayal, submission, and forgiveness. We see that there is a way through, even though it makes absolutely no sense to those around. But we see that God fulfill his will and ever one took their place, in the baffling dance of free will and divine plan. It appears that the fiercer the fire makes the stronger the person, the fiercer the fire the bigger the victory.

Luke 24:52
"And they worshiped Him, and returned to Jerusalem with great joy,"

cont. Jan 14

Ecclesiastes 1 NKJV
"17 And I set my heart to know wisdom and to know madness and folly. I perceived that this also is grasping for the wind
18 For in much wisdom is much grief, And he who increases knowledge increases sorrow."

Ephesians 1:9 NKJV
"Having made known to us the mystery of His will, according to His good pleasure which He purposed in Himself,"
...
18 "the eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that you may know what is the hope of His calling, what are the riches of the glory of His inheritance in the saints,"

Jan 18

Empty this clip,
Work till I can't.
Break this stick.

What happens when you get told something
that you have figured better?
Out of respect of authority you choose
to forget your better judgment.

It's amazing what you can learn about somebody by dancing with them.
Lots of things come together,
you can catch a glimpse of the choices made.
Yes I stole something, and I will never give it back.

I've known for a long time.
It's recorded in my journals from high school.
If you want to be good at something,
you need to be passionate about it.
The trouble, the challenge, it seems,
is what can I be passionate about that won't leave me broke?

Here is an interesting quote to think about.

"Men still have to be governed by deception."
Georg C. Lichtenberg

Loudly

I used to think that I had no moment that I can look back and say that is when I gave my life to Christ, But I do. It came back to me recently.
I was young, I was playing with toys on the floor in front of the church bench during the service. I heard the preacher ask if anyone wanted to let Jesus into there life, and to the embarrassment of my parents I said I did very loudly. So loudly in fact that the preacher heard it.

I believe that is the moment I let Jesus take the drivers seat, and I like it.

sunk in

I used to believe that intelligence could solve all problems,
I used to believe that intelligence was the trump card,
All I needed to do was be a little smarter,
a little more understanding and everything would be easier.
and in many places today that is what we are told.
Some people get paid big dollars to tell us we are gods.

The more you know the more you realize that you don't know,
I heard that many times, but it never really sunk in.

But if you look at history and all the truly smart people that
were years ahead of their time you will soon see that many of them
killed themselves or were killed before their time.
It seems that it is easy to get trapped into a circle
of always wanting a little more, until your left with nothing.

I'm not saying that being able to think things through is not important,
it is very important, just don't expect the world.

This seems allot like a conundrum. lol

September 24, 2008

I tie myself to you
So teach me to leave my sin behind,
teach me to trust,
give me more of what I can't take right now.
stretch me beyond my limits,
just be there like you always are,
pick me up, break these fears.
teach me to overcome.
God bless us
God lead us

Bit pessimistic

I guess I'm bit pessimistic,
but I know that everything here will disappoint me sometime,
I guess I'm looking for something more.

"We who have run for our very lives to God have every reason to grab the promised hope with both hands and never let go. It's to the very presence of God where Jesus, running on ahead of us, has taken up his permanent post as high priest for us..." Hebrews 6:~17-20 The Message

I've seen this before

There is this funny thing and it appears many places in life.
This scale.
There is this balance between living your life,
and listening to other peoples criticism.
There is this balance between letting yourself fall,
and other people telling you what to do.
Because no matter how hard we try we are affected by those around us,
and no matter how hard we try we are who we are.

(NKJV) John 14:27 Peace I leave with you, my peace I give to you: not as the world gives, do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.

So God reach into us,
God bless us,
God lead us.

I've seen this place before

I've seen this place before.
It seems to appear in everything from learning, life, building, working hard ... etc
It's the place where you are nearest to somewhere else,
without realizing it.
It's when discouragement can set in,
it's where all seems to be against.
It's where the fighting is the hardest.
This is where you push a little harder,
use the ace card, you have up your sleeve.
Let everything go, and let yourself take it's course.
This is where you ask for help.

God help us.
God bless us.
God lead us.

Restlessness

I look for people who know what they believe,
and truly follow it.
Who understand what they hold to,
and they hold to something that will not let them down.
People who do not fear.
People like this I find are few and far between
This is far from being assertive,
far from knowing how to lead,
far from the being cynical which seems to be prevalent at the U.
far from the usual.

I guess it's the dream for myself,
and I am always looking for role models.
People to emulate.
And really no person can match what I'm looking for,
but some people can show me apart of what what I'm looking for.
I guess that's one of the founding building block of who I am.

Finding people like this usually needs a little help from God,
because every next step appears backwards.

God lead us.
God bless us.