Flying Days

The day is gone,
I find myself getting older
clinging to the present,
only God is my guide.

The weeks are come and gone, and my life is still the same
So much wanting and impatience.
Can't hold to this sand,
only to the mountain of God.

I find my self doing things I never would,
I have determined that I'm crazy
wishing for normal
but God always leads on.

There are so many mistacks and regrets,
they pill behind me
in never ending cycles,
Jesus always cleans the mess.

If these days have come and gone
and I am left with empty hands
I will praise the Lord for he is good,
because all I wanted was sand that has washed away,
but now I have a friend
that never lets go.

The rock keeps on rolling,
and time keeps on moving,
never asks a question why.
God knows best so I wouldn't change a thing.

This is a prayer that I have used and I find it effective
"God this isn't working, if it is your will I need your help, if not you have to end it."
I have found the last few posts hard to post for what ever reason, maybe because they say allot about me, or they could be taken the wrong way. Don't quite know. Meh they are posted anyways.

"I will work harder"

"He who finds his life will lose it, and he who loses his life for My sake will find it." Matthew 10:39 NKJV

"His answer to every problem, every setback, was "I will work harder" - which he had adopted as his motto" George Orwell Animal Farm

God is gracious to us. I have noticed quite a few times how stuck on an idea I can be. It seems that the only way to convince me of something is to give me a really solid argument and time, either that or God has to convince me. My prayer to God is that when there is a problem that I would look to him when I would want to be stuck in my mentality.

God thank you for all you have done for us, we need you. Help us live for you.

The Divide that Binds (people/friends/family)

Conventional thinking has it that in natural selection survival of the fittest will create the ultimate survivor(and we would like it to be humans lol), and for some people I know that is what they believe. Life is all about a competition with everyone around them. Eugène N. Marcus disagrees, there is no ultimate survivor, or person that rules all, for every tool we gain we lose a tool. Our brain has giving us the ability to do things we never imagined but we depend on one another. Without being taught how to survive and being alone a human would not last very long, unlike other animals where they will know how to live from birth. This tool of working together has many strength's but it also has it's weaknesses. Working together creates a network of trust and dependence on each other, which when broken shows our many weaknesses. C.S. Lewis gives an interpretation of hell as an infinite city of almost empty buildings because no one wants to be neighbors with each other. If we would lose our natural need for each other would we still stay together?

Happiness is not found in toys, I've believed that for awhile but I've had trouble finding where to find happiness. I tried hard to find it by myself but God is the one who had to show me. For me it is far from the TV/computer (which just seem to be time sinks, but they do have there place and I have found they can teach you lots. To use as entertainment they have there place but for me I have to be careful). I find for me I like getting so involved with things that I don't notice the passing of time, eg creating things (even though it can be tearably frustrating and time consuming). I believe God loves releasing peoples spirit so they can find themselves in him.

The divide that binds. We humans are so different. We are as Paul describes in Romans 12:14 "For we have many members in one body, but all the members do not have the same function,"

Dear God we are poor and needy, teach us to live together, teach us how to do the impossible and overcome evil with good(Romans 12:15). Give us more then we need to do your will so that we have no choice :). Bless all your servants and help them learn from you.

The storm clouds are forming

Today you get the third blog I wrote up this weekend. I decided to scratch the others (even though I didn't really want to post this one) . No internet and busier weekend can do that. Maybe they will come tomorrow ;P.

The storm clouds are forming.
The waters are rising
Old enemies have returned from hiding
There are voices telling me to give up
telling me there is no hope
I remember the blessings of God
When things went right.
So I hold to the promise that God is in control
Remember the good forget the bad,
but it is just so hard some times so God help me.
Soon I find myself playing with insects that are on my screen
and everything is fine and I know God is here.

Faith

Luke 18:1-8 (New International Version)

The Parable of the Persistent Widow

1Then Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up. 2He said: "In a certain town there was a judge who neither feared God nor cared about men. 3And there was a widow in that town who kept coming to him with the plea, 'Grant me justice against my adversary.'

4"For some time he refused. But finally he said to himself, 'Even though I don't fear God or care about men, 5yet because this widow keeps bothering me, I will see that she gets justice, so that she won't eventually wear me out with her coming!'

6And the Lord said, "Listen to what the unjust judge says. 7And will not God bring about justice for his chosen ones, who cry out to him day and night? Will he keep putting them off? 8I tell you, he will see that they get justice, and quickly. However, when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on the earth?"

This is one area that God has changed in me, in my walk with him, and in other areas. It then become necessary to find the balance being persistent and what to forget about. Persistence has the ability to forget about people, but if your not persistent you will never get anything done.

Teach me to hear your voice, remember/believe what you tell me, and do what you say.

John James Friesen

Red Letter Days

There is so much baggage that we bring along, so many ideas that we cling to as if they are us. As if we let them go we die. I find God breaking them and showing me his way. I find my ideas on progress, friends, family, people, me, faith and more changed. Lots of ideas that I had formed and fixed in my mind, that I had built to be supporting members of my thoughts and actions are mistakenly wrong. One of Satan's strongest temptations for Christians is almost truths. Why do we fight change so much? Why are we so scared to change our idea's? I guess we are scared that we will lose everything we have worked for, which well is really nothing. So God give us Red Letter days where we start living for you. Where we listen to you.

Working on Progress

I find life is always moving forward allot like Weekend Amnesia (Revolution Void found on Jamendo). Deep down in my soul I feel excited for the future. I can't wait for God to lead me. God is truly leading me down the path not taken and well I wouldn't have it any other way because anything I dream up is really boring in comparison. I asked God that I could learn to hear his voice, know his voice and, that I would follow it no matter what and well I still have allot of learning to do but I wouldn't trade it for the world. I find that he truly does give me everything I need if I ask. I have no idea what will happen tomorrow let alone next year but I know that God will lead me and the road well, will be a fun ride :). I find myself completely changing my way of thinking, my way of acting, my way of seeing the world. There are allot of things that are hard to do (because they are so strange or new) but I pray that God will give me strength to push me over the edge and just follow him. I have decided to follow everything that I think God is telling me to do and trust that if it isn't his will he will smack me in the face and force me to turn around (I have found this great logic to live by), and really compared to eternity this life isn't worth much anyway so meh i give it all.